DREAMing BIG

How often in your life have you seen the tangible hand of God move in a really BIG way? Like in a miraculous, there is no way that what happened could be attributed to anything or anyone else but to God Himself kind of way?

The BIGgest moments where I have experienced the God of the Universe act have left me humbled. When He acts in BIG ways, I believe if we have eyes and ears to comprehend it, being humble in who we are and yet at the same time being in awe of His greatness and hugeness in the reality of who He is--is one of the only ways we can truly respond.

I think back right now as I write this at some of the most incredible ways I have seen Him move and I am reminded that He is so BIG, so good, and so faithful. 

I remind myself of the reality of these BIG monumental glimpses of God I have seen in my life because I wonder if one of them is on the way.

It has to do with the DREAM home that I've mentioned before, but it may not be what you are expecting to hear. The DREAMy property I told you about in June came to nothing. Simply put, the property has been run by a handful of nuns since 1919, and when we met with them in July,  it became abundantly clear to all of us that joining them to have a home for women was NOT an option. Truthfully, I think I misunderstood initially that they were looking for someone to lead and continue their minisitry to women in prostitution--I don't think they were or are. I believe they are burned out from having a home for women and want someone to take their ministry and property in a completely different and new direction. The sad thing is that I believe that this property was the only one of its kind in all of Germany.  There are homes for women who are addicted to drugs or alcohol, or who are escaping abusive husbands or who are in need of psychological help. But the experts I know here in Germany tell me there are no homes for women escaping prostitution in the entire country.

Surprisingly enough, after our meeting with the nuns, I wasn't heart broken.  I was more caught off guard.  I had really thought that that property could be our home one day. 

As I was processing it in the days that followed, the only phrase that came to my mind was DREAM deferred.  I thought, "What does that really mean, anyway?"  So I looked it up and found this:

"A dream deferred, by definition, is simply a dream that has come true later than you expected or initially hoped - often such a delay is understood as necessary for its proper fulfilment."

Hmmm. 

The following week we received a friendly letter from the nuns in the mail.  They wrote that as they were praying that they were reminded of a home and property that might be of interest to us.  Because of this letter, in a roundabout way, we came upon a home and property in the countryside that we are currently praying about (and we would love for you to join us in prayer in seeking God's will in this).

It is a beautiful home, where our family could live, and directly behind it is another house that is fitted with apartments where the women could live...plus it has an area where we could run a Bible school and have job training for the women.  As I walked through the property I could envision us living there, with the women, and the reality of what I was seeing with my eyes in the flesh and what I was seeing with the eyes of my heart and mind was so BIG I was pretty much speechless. 

That was over a month ago.  We have prayed and prayed and we have waited and waited.  We still have no clarity on the matter.  But I am wondering if God wants to move BIG on our behalf.

BIG because He'd have to.
BIG because in our own doing
there is no way we can afford to purchase it.
I'm talking BIG.

What if
He, on behalf of the women here, and also on behalf of ALL OF US who are watching--wants to move BIG to show Himself as who He is--BIG and Almighty and All Powerful? 

What if
sometimes He does the BIG and unimaginable just because He can and because He wants to and because He knows that when He acts in such BIG ways it brings glory and worship and honor to who He is?

What if
He accomplishes the BIG and impossible to show us a real life example of his extravaggant love He has toward us?

What if?

I wonder.  Is He on the move?  

I don't know; but I do know this:

I'm wide-eyed, ticket in hand, seated in the front row.
           
                            .....

from The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe:

"Aslan is on the move...
 And Lucy felt running through her
 that deep shiver of gladness
 which you can only get
 if you are being solemn and still."
                 -C.S. Lewis